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The Stars Make Love to the Universe

March 31st, 2014 by Ariel Martinez

My mind is constantly racing. Fears, Doubts and Insecurities, my only friends. I was never good at making friends. Those I ended up getting close to, pulled me in with false words and fake smiles, as they pulled me in tight, giving me security till I felt the blade trickle up my spine.

I breathe in deeply, becoming one with the poison cloud of my life. Letting it build till my pores ache and moan in discomfort. Feeling every inch of me burn and itch as I try to spread my black wings, desperately trying to clean the air, and I suffocate.

And there you are, grabbing my hand and thrusting me into your hold, away from the miasma. I feel my mind finally fall into an ease I’m not used to, erupting from the pit of my heart, my most uncontrollable fears. Each pouring out through my actions unintentionally, pushing you back. Hurting you till you bleed, begging for more as you give me all I am allowed and I ache at my selfishness. Why do you do this to me?

You make me feel so alive, but I’d be better left lying on the floor. Better for you, and better for everyone else who has ever had the displeasure of knowing me, but you… You make me so selfish, and I can only fall to my knees and beg for forgiveness as I demand your eternal love. Love me. </3